so i go to ask my parents if i can have some friends over
and they say "ummm your moms gunna be here in 10 minutes"
oh okay... i thought to myself, then ill just invite them over after..
doesnt look like i'll be inviting friends over for a while
it seems my mom's been reading a journal i have on a nexopia account
and it says about everything, meaning the drugs ive done and well.. everything
so my dad and mom sit me down and say "this isnt going to be a good talk..."
and my hopes just sank to the core of the earth
i knew right there and then theyd figured me out
they told me they knew it all
the weed, the shrooms, the crack, the ecstacy, the pills... everything, there wasnt noting they didnt know now
i might be going away for a month or two during the school year to rehab
i guess i wouldnt really mind...
i just wish i quit drugs awhile ago when my friends at the current time tried getting me off them
ohwell... after this im scared to see what will happen
i dont think ill be able to go out with shawn.. i doubt hed wait for me, i do like him alot
but i dont see whats great about me anymore, no more party girl
im known for my fun-party side
now what am i going to do
i honestly have no clue what to expect on the road ahead
my stepmom is very very very mad at me
she wont look at me or talk to me
i just wanted to taste freedom, i was so close
and then this comes up and ive fallen lower than i have ever been before, and it will take forever to climb back up and gain back my freedom/trust
for now.. i have my music and the tears that dont seem to want to stop pouring out.